Oh No- Help Needed

I think I just failed.

This is terrifying.

I'm calling the other side of me B. That because it's the kind of thing you do not want to be. B   is a monster, and I'm trying to control it.

I can't even call it a she or give it any endearment.
I won't.

It's like B is spiraling out of control.

Help. Help. Help.

PS. It's like a psychological thriller against myself. UGH. I hate it. I HATE B.